Pride and Free Speech Town Hall Statement, June 7 2010, @the 519
In case anyone were curious, this is Ryan's statement in full from the June 7th Town Hall on Pride and Free Speech at the 519. Characteristically, it was hard to keep within the two minute limit.
Tomboyfriend, as a matter of consensus and conscience, withdrew from Pride TO's Alterna-Queer stage on May 26th, specifically citing solidarity with Queers United against Israeli Apartheid on the matter of censorship as the reason for this decision. We are a large and diverse group, the fact we could discuss this openly and arrive at consensus while being internally not totally in agreement in specifics related to the bureaucracy of Pride Toronto, the Israeli-Palestinian conflict, neo-colonization, even what constitutes censorship, I found this step we took together distinctly heartening. Speaking only for myself, the band organizer, this is specifically the space that I recognize has been lost in Pride TO's board decision to ban the participation of one group, sacrificing not only Pride as a political space, but a space where politics can be discussed, enacted, where people can be informed and change and form alliances among one another, even sometimes with compromise or shouting, and hopefully move together, as awkwardly and violently and painfully as these things often go, but towards change. Broadly, what I believe Pride TO has conceded is that Pride TO is no longer a community, not in the sense I just invoked. That to me is too large a sacrifice.
Under the current administrative environment of Pride TO, again speaking only for myself and not on behalf of the band, some of whom will march with QuAIA during Pride, some of whom may act under other banners, some of whom may even stay home, I could see no meaningful way in which an act like ourselves, who make specific references to politics and the global climate and the nuances of class and queerness and exclusion and oppression . . . but also sometimes really, really don't . . . a band that tries to make for itself and its audience a free space, a community space within our own immediate community but always pushing the limits of our community, a space where radical politics have entered into the discussion, a space even in which to have fun, I don't see how we could mount a performance in any meaningful way, without just adding to the noise or else being drowned out by it. I respect deeply those artists who have remained in the official program of Pride TO while expressing solidarity for Queers United against Israeli Apartheid, either on the matter of censorship or because of a deep alliance with QuAIA's specific campaign, but also felt strongly the environment was already closed to artists to participate in any way that resembled free speech. Already there seemed an imposition upon everyone that they needed to shout to be heard. Or else just keep their head in the sand. In this, I sense, if not a dead end, at least an impasse. To be clear, I rest the weight of onus on creating that environment solely with PrideTO's decision to create a precedent by censoring one group, because it was optic and convenient for it do so in a given climate.
This year, and I would add with deeply ambivalent feelings, we are trying an experiment, our band. We are going to mark the season around Pride by organizing or taking part in events that respond to our politics and our community at hand, but are not part of the register of official PrideTO events. In that, and again I speak only for myself, I am hoping to re-enact the ideals and identification I once held out for Pride specifically, but in a more basic, grassroots way. I am eager to extend the olive branch, particularly to artist-entertainers like ourselves who might feel similarly: there is something we are commemorating here, the spontaneous alliance and enactment of our politics and our culture, which is always shifting and evolving, but I am not certain that space currently resides within the fixed "parade route" of Pride TO. In this I have not written off Pride, but I certainly don't see any place in it for a mouthy party band like us, especially one with deeply held, diverse and thoughtful politics and external alliances amongst our members. I do hope this is only temporary, this apparent collapse of leadership and vision within Pride TO.
I thank you for giving me some time to voice our position and concerns.