Amanda Saint Blog Case Study From High School “Teenage Substance Abuse In The Family”
Recently a high school drop out exfriend from 13years ago who stated as I was their x-roommate and on student welfare to go through college “if you don’t like it leave” I left in October of 1997. Since then I suspect identity theft, targeted since I am bi and voluptuous, woman hating type ex-associates, annoying me, and the icing on the cake was a open stage March 17th 2007, an associate from a marketing firm where I worked in the audience wearing a sergeants hat with an iron cross on it, not to mention befriending and bullying my ex-boyfriend of 19years. I took a sociology course in high school as this individual, I suspect as my teacher told me a drug detox councillor would have had her committed, that since I do not want to know her as she is an abusive individual, yet Peel cops when I called her since I signed a video waiver with Radio 3, threatened me for harassment, yet her brother lives just down the street from me, my ex-boyfriend seems scared to nice, and I suspect marketers, different attire every day, who use cameras and report behaviour.
Below is an interview you can sue me, as I am not allowed to contact her, as the tape if the teacher is still alive is on file. Also I told the Peel cops I will write and it is a civil matter. For she hates me that much it will be always man looking ugly and bitchy in public.
1.) What factors contributed to your decision to start taking drugs?
Curiosity, friends had anti-drug attitude, but drank felt like a hypocrite because I shared the same attitude as my friends without experiencing it.
2.) Was there any peer pressure involved outside of group of friends?
I was offered it by other people, but I turned it down. It was my own decision to take drugs.
3.) If the original reason for taking drugs was curiosity, what made you continue to use drugs?
I liked the feeling. I enjoyed the sense of detachment from the outside world. After a while though, I realized it because a form of escape to help me forget about my problems. The drugs also started to change me as a person.
4.) You say that drug use “changed you as a person”, in what ways did it change you?
I began to get more heavily involved in drugs. I became self absorbed, detached/alienated from other people, and developed low self-esteem.
5.) If you were “self absorbed” and “alienated from other people”, how did you manage to bring yourself out of heavy drug use?
I came to some serious revelations about myself.
6.) Was there any circumstances that triggered these revelations?
My friends informed me of changes in my personality. I grew apart from old friends. I got new friends who were involved in drug scene. I couldn’t go to parties unless stoned. My social life began to revolve around drugs: I bought them -I sold them – I took them. I began to feel as though I had lost myself along the way. I had a lot of family problems around them.
7.) At any point during this period of time, did you ever think about reaching out to someone for help?
All the time. But I realized after talking with friends that the only person that could help me was myself. When people did reach out to me, I just got defensive. I realized later they were right.
8.) What was your parent’s reaction towards your antisocial behaviour?
Other people said that they were worried. My parents said they saw a “self destructive” attitude in me.
9.) How did your parents explain your noticeable change in personality?
They thought at first it was because I had left home. They also thought I was angry at them, but in fact I was just angry with myself. However when I did move back home they did suspect drug use. They continually accused me of doing heavy drugs. They thought I was into coke and heroin because of the mood swings I went through.
10.) What is the extent of your drug use?
Alcohol, hashish, marijuana, LSD, magic mushrooms, but I have only tried ether and cocaine once.
11.) In what ways if any, do you regret your drug experience?
It opened up doorways in my head that should have been kept shut. It also opened up a view to the darker side of things. It put a strain on my pocketbook.
12.) In what ways if any, do you not regret your drug experience?
I like the feeling of tranquility. I like the feeling of everything being so beautiful.
13.) Are you completely free of drugs presently?
No, but I have cut down to a minimum.
14.) What do you consider minimal drug use?
Approximately once or twice a week.
15.) After all you’ve been through, what has prevented you from stopping drugs all together?
I have no desire to stop it all together, because I still enjoy doing it. I see drugs as a recreational tool. It’s o.k. in moderation. Also I have seen people of various age groups do it, don’t let it become a monkey on your back, because once you start if you get very very heavily into it, it’s an extremely hard habit to break. You’ll regret it, in the end, more than likely. after all drugs aren’t what they’re cracked up to be. the cons outweigh the pros.
Footnote: this woman lives in a suburb Mississauga, cops admitted as well as mutual friends who I have stopped contact with, that she befriended ex-friends also behind my back, if someone likes me she will bad mouth it, I also suspect she is into snuff and humiliating porn, as she plays Scottish, claims to be Irish and German, as when she was younger she hung out with older ethic males that dealt drugs and picked on pretty teenage men and woman. Last call fancy phone with call display, high school drop out, and fancy voice. She is 5ft 1, in height usually 1 inch taller with heels, her husband is a musician, last check if she’s married, also will not give back demo ex-mutal friend left behind. I’d give her name but she likes to use male names with friends like Jon or Mortimer Short, or change name, via stolen identification I suspect, so there is no point!